What a honest and gut-wretching reflection!!
I alwasy felt very meh (not quite a no but definitely not a yes, either) about motherhood and only made a different choice when I saw that pink strip at 38.
I HATED all the "you'll change your mind" or "when is your turn?" comments and I think it's so ignorant and stupid, especially given how many women can't and might not want to talk about it.
I have a hard time believing you'll be alone at the end, Amanda, though I think that fear is totally real and very relatable. Thanks again!!!